So I'm heading back to school after a week of spring break and another week of being sick as a dog. I'm back in my cluttered apartment and tomorrow will begin again the ritual of going to classes, turning in assignments, struggling to keep up my 4.0 GPA, and very little else. These last few months I've been feeling the walls closing in on me as it were, and it's not only stressful, it makes it difficult to get myself to get my camera out and go shoot. It seems I'm constantly in a state of frenzy trying to keep up with getting class work finished and turned in and occasionally getting some sleep. This ironically makes it difficult to stay interested in the stuff I'm supposed to be learning, much less anything outside of class--I don't go out shooting anywhere near as often as I should be, I don't get to do any studying beyond what I'm assigned, and I sometimes end up going for a week or more without directly addressing another human being.

What's really disconcerting is that I'm only halfway through my third semester. I've got quite a bit more to go, and I'm not sure just how much more of this mind-numbing existence I can put up with. I also know that normal people doing the college student thing get stressed out about class work, but most manage not to be completely consumed by it. And I would really like to figure out just I'm doing wrong that causes everything to be a constant headache.